My journey in my forties

     - Between 36 and 40 a woman is like France. Gently aging but still a warm and desirable place to visit.

           - Between 41 and 50 she is like Yugoslavia, lost the war - haunted by past mistakes. Massive reconstruction is  now necessary.

I published the “Geography of a Woman” the same date last year. By Friday next week, it will be my last year to stay in France and I will be entering the borderline of Yugoslavia next year. Again, I have so much to thank for the past year. Somebody up there must be really listening and paying attention to me. We all have God to thank for everything in our lives - the good and the not so good. For those who helped us to show the way to balance our life, made our struggles so much easier and keep us sane.

I am hoping this decade will be easier than the last (….and I will still be hot…not just warm and desirable to visit ). My journey thus far has been challenging. It has however, made me strong, confident, beautiful and most of all grateful.

Well, whichever part of the world I am and whatever age I am ….I am a woman on a mission, nothing can stop me, I am stronger than ever, I wanna see this through, Whatever it takes I will do what I gotta do.

T G I F - This Girl Is Fabulous V(~,^)

Shout Out Loud 2

..additional Shout Outs na medyo may pagka-keso…

from my FB from other unit….mahal nya ko pro ikaw ang mahal ko, mahal kta pro my mahal kang iba… Mahal nya ko mahal kta mahal mo xa… Di ba pwedeng Mahal mo ko, mahal kita “bahala cla?”

from the same person…..never explain yourself to anyone bec. the person who likes you dont need it and the person who dislikes you wont believe it.

from previous colleague….gusto ko lamang sa buhay ay yakapin mo ako.di naman ako milyonaryo basta’t araw-araw yakap mo ako,feeling ko ang yaman yaman ko! Ang dami ko pang sinabi tungkol sa aking sarili, lahat ng yun ‘di na bale ,ikaw lang ang importante. )

from another FB fom other unit….Life is prison when you’re in love alone.

from other unit….The couple that fights the most is the one most in love… it shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When you stop fighting it  means you stopped caring.

from my gimikera FB - the way someone treats you when you’re together is something to be considered. But the way, they treat you when you’re not aound is much more important.

another one from her - its hard when u dont know what causes your sadness, but its even harder when you know what makes you sad, yet, you cant do anything about it.

Shout Out Loud

Some lines may look familiar for those who are following my blog and my FB’s (especially if we have common friends) because
I lifted it from the shoutouts of my friends in FB’s. Just want to share it…some make sense, some are not…no logical sense at all….or maybe at some point it will…..for the sake of discussion.

“Everything happens for a reason, live it, love it, learn from it! Make your smile change the world, but don’t let the world change your smile.”

“Being single doesn’t mean your weak, It means your strong enough to wait for what YOU deserve.”

“Relationships are not about whom you’ve known the longest or whom cared first or who cared best, it’s all about who came and never left.”

“You have found that there are days in which you’re much more easily riled up — and then there are days, when you’ve got your emotions bottled up in the best way possible.”

“It’s not wrong to be nice to everybody but learn to be true to only few. So you won’t end up being betrayed by someone whom you’ve trusted.”

“I’m quite sure that no friendship yields its true pleasure and nobility of nature without frequent communication, sympathy and service. - george e. woodberry”

“If CALIFORNIA GIRLS are unforgettable, then FILIPINA GIRLS are worth dying for..;)”

Blew it up

I would like to apologize for my anger…for my outburst on my entry below. It is so unlike me especially for those who know me. I shouldn’t have swore like that.

Well.. we all have bad days. No harm, no foul.  Believe me, I don’t do it all the time. But don’t sweat it,  we all go nuts at least once on here.

Infusion from collaboration

Hey! Hey! Hey! What’s up, Guys? Missed me? I terribly missed you too! Ha Ha Ha! Finally, have the f*****g internet connection again. The past 12 days has been a little boring….added to my already boring life… -:)…, my connection was damaged due to typhoon and I had to wait for  the scheduled repair. I have internet access at the office but my responsibilities comes first (ha!ha!ha!) so I dont have the luxury of surfing anything anytime and updating my blog. I just check my personal emails. During those 2 weekends, my siblings and I, had our pasttimes watching last full show movies nearby.

Anyways, I’ve been enjoying my present works and the perks. Been a participant and organizing events at the same time. I was assigned to do something I thought I would never do as part of my responsibilities. There was this event last week that I was assigned to be a photographer. Holy s**t..I dont have an eye of a photographer. As it turned out, the shots were not really good but I learned I had to do the write up too and the lay out. Wow, maybe that’s something I am interested and good at. Its just like blogging. I finished it in no time and the positive feedback I got made me smile.

I also had a chance to visit my previous unit. It feels good to see again the people and friends I used to work with. They are still warm and really happy for me. Though, some are just new faces for me, old faces almost gone and took their different paths like me. Had a breakfast treat from friends and a faculous lunch treat from a cousin, who has been asking me to meet her for weeks,  before fixing some personal matters. Too bad, I had to go back to the office, it would be really nice to roam around. It was such a hot and wonderful Friday morning.

The other day, I received an unexpected message from the brother of my bestfriend congratulating me. I thought he was congratulating me because I got transferred but on the other hand, I realized..”how the hell he knows and I was just transferred, I was not promoted?” So I asked him why and he said he heard somewhere from the grapevine that I got married. What the f**k? Where the hell did it came from? Apparently, it has been circulating for a while around my outside friends from work. Something I posted at my FB. A confusion that leads to conclusion without clarification. So to clear the air, I explained that I never got married…..not in the near future. The shoutout on my FB was referring to the correction of my middle name on my passport. They thought I changed my surname by getting married. And the other shoutout…I think that was last March….was referring to something I was expecting to come but too late for me to learn that it was moved to another date. Friends, colleagues and even relatives asked me about it, surprisingly few knows it (thanks guys, that was very touching hehehe).. but no use elaborating…it never took place.

Power struggles are never really fun…but little extra craziness are. Some things are really moving that will leave you smiling.

Samot Sari stories…

 How time flies!!! The next time we know, it would be August and my friend and I would be flying to Thailand to have our short vacation (Yeehheyy!!!…so excited). After that, it would be “ber” month and we are all be waiting for holiday season.

Anyways, the important thing is we enjoy everyday of our life. I feel good and have been working hard, so I’m hopeful for a good result. Even though I am in the process of learning more, I still felt like things were right on track given it was my first few weeks on the grind. I had a good training session and few official events. I have enough time of sleep at night and even have time for internet exploring in the morning before going to work. My sister is taking up Masteral and she is using our PC  at night, otherwise my brother is playing Dota. So I dont have a choice but to sleep early. 

I am always looking forward to Weekend, which is more relaxing for me.  I’m not really into watching movies in big screen but I’ve been into movie houses this last 2 weekend. 1st, when my mother really like to watch Tagalog movie and I was the only one available to accompany her (but I enjoyed the popcorn, we even bought after the movie and brought it home). 2nd, last weekend when we watched an English movie with my close friend (it was really worth watching in big screen), we both enjoyed the move.

  I also visited the wake of the father of a colleague. It is a saying that you must find a happy place after visiting the funeral before going home to shed off whatever bad vibes or unhappy spirit you bring from the funeral. Though it isn’t necessary, I decided to dropped by at McDonalds nearby and had cold drinks…and just to make sure that I left all the bad and unhappy vibes I dropped by at Mini Stop to buy toiletries I would be needing then proceed to go home. Well, there is no harm in following it.

And tomorrow, there is a plan to watch a movie with my siblings (Again???…I mean…they plan…I will pay!!!)

One thing’s for certain: it would be another exciting and enjoyable weekend.

Despite all odds…

  I had a very hearty and delicious dinner with my relatives last night. It was a despedida of one of my cousin who will be leaving today with her husband for United States. She was petitioned by her husband, who is also a Filipino and already staying there with his family. Biologically, she is not really my cousin, she is a daughter of my oldest first cousin, so that makes her my niece. But there is a little generation gap…so we always treat each other cousins (she even calls me “ate” instead of “tita”). She is the same age as my  sister, they even went to the same schools together in grade school and high school.

Before she met her husband, she already had a son out of wedlock, which all of us did not have any idea with the identity of the father. Newly graduate that time and to support her child and help her family, she worked as a freelancer nurse anywhere and everywhere then eventually decided to try her luck in the Middle East where she worked  for almost 5 years.  She met her husband now through intenet, who was introduced and bestfriend of her ex-boyfriend (ironic…isn’t it??). They got along very well through chatting and through phone. Unknowingly, while she was in the Middle East, her father got into a drug related case and was imprisoned (he is now out of prison but the case is not yet close). Her family kept this information from her, however, she accidentally known this one day and she came home immediately bringing as much money as she had and as she could lend. But then, she realized that she cannot do anything…it was not enough and she cannot do anything from here, either. So she decided to return back to Middle East to continue working. After a year, she and her husband had a vacation at the same time and met personally for the first time. She introduced him to our relatives laying all the cards about her. Another year passed and they got married…a beach wedding…in our province. That was nothing like she never thought her wedding would be like, but she was ecstatic.  

I salute her husband, despite everything about my cousin’s background. He and his family accepted her without any question and gave his unconditional love. She is feeling very satisfied with herself.  He is taking good care of her and her family.  Despite everything, she felt content. She loves him, and she is pretty sure that he loves her back….and more. She said that she might not loved him with all her being…..for now…..but she is sure welcoming the idea of falling deeply for him in the future..which no doubt she will.  It was great knowing my cousin found that kind of man in her life. It’s taken this long, but now she knows what she needs to do. He might not be a perfect man for her but he is a very sentitive and considerate name to the feelings of others, unselfish and compassionate. There would be a sinking feeling in her stomach once she boards the plane tomorrow knowing they would be together for a longer time in a strange place for her. We are happy to see her go because we know he loved her dearly and he only wants the best for her. Goodluck couz…

It might be true that “We do not fall in love with beautiful people; we find them beautiful because we love them”.

 And today, I had to do twice my turbo jam to loose the calories I had last night from all the seafoods that we ate…. and maybe a walk or a jog over the weekend…

My 1st 3 days…

  I should be writing “what did I accomplished after my first 100 days”  like the President of the country. But I will not wait for 100 days to express my overwhelming feeling caused by the gracious reception of those I am working with now and the very warm and friendly atmosphere around.

As a new member of the group, I didn’t know where to start but they patiently guided me to pick up my wits end. They are not hesitating to share what they know, appreciating what I know and together, working out what I dont know.   I will not be doubting their 100% support.  During break, they even gave me something to eat and they did not forget to remind me if it is time to have lunch or invite me to join them for lunch. After office hours, they would be telling me that its fine to go ahead.

Now, I know that the coming years will surpassed the past 3 enjoyable years of my life. It will not only help me develop and improve my skills and abilities but will also contribute for my emotional satisfaction. I am looking forward of going home from work feeling great about what I’ve done that give me stimulation.

And as my lady boss said at the end of my first meeting “I welcome wild and crazy idea”  which at the way she said it, you would think she was already thinking innovative fun action which is intended to stimulate the group. You would also really think that said line really originated from her…..its more like her.  Let’s see how wild and crazy my group is…

My All Around Tatay

 Five days from now, it would be my father’s birthday (at least that was what his birth certificate said…I dunno what is wrong with birth certificates) but he knows from the start that his birthday would be every July 18. Anyways,we always celebrate it every June 17. And it will be Father’s day next weekend, so I would like to dedicate this entry to greet him a very Happy Birthday and Happy Father’s Day (though he didn’t know how to use the computer…what more using the internet !?!)

This year, as he was already retired from work, he will be celebrating his birthday with us and we are sure the videoke will start as early as 9am. He loves to sing and he likes ice cream (childish!!!). He seems to know things around the house (and outside) and we call him Jack of all Trade. At 66, he is in better shape and more active than many people his age.

And I pray to God that you live longer and have a good health.  Thank You for everything you are. Life is more beautiful when you are around. Lots of Love!

 To all the fathers in the world, Happy Father’s Day.

Reminiscing

Old Friends from past years tend to drift apart as we move to new cities or change, but with new technologies, we re-connect. People change and sometimes when you haven’t seen someone in a long time, you get your hopes up only to end up disappointed

My friend and I were invited by our old friend from our past work  to a birthday party of her eldest son, who happens to be the “inaanak” of my friend. That was  2 weeks ago. This friend we havent seen for more than 10 years but we exchange SMS ocassionaly. We thought it was just a birthday get together but we were surprised to find out it was a double celebration for the blessing of her 2nd house within the subdivision. It was some kind of a real party. 

We were all delighfully happy that we’ve met again. The chemistry and magic we once had is still the same.  It was really great to see her. Those are the kind of reunions that we all love to hear about. We had a simply wonderful time and great food too. Hey Girl, I am waiting for those pix?

More guts…

This was forwarded to me yesterday and I just want to share it: 

I must say, I usually hold my tongue.  Most of the time.  But sometimes, when the situation calls for it, I can unleash as well.  I don’t usually gravitate towards mataray people, but surprisingly I have a lot of mataray friends.  The usual pattern would be, I’d hate their guts, then I’d get to know them a little better, then sometimes, we even end up good friends.  There’s a nice kind of maldita, the type that incorporates genuine humor, and then there’s the outright mean one - that type I stay away from - Chico & Delamar (RX 93.1 Morning Rush):

May 11, 2010 ? The Top Taray Quotes

1.. Addie 17 - Back in college, I was walking along Mendiola when this manong came up to me out of nowhere and said: “Hi, beauty!” So I answered: “Hello, beast.”
2.. Diwata - During a wedding, an aunt asked me: “Kelan ka susunod?” I answered: “Tita naman, how would you feel kung magkita tayo sa burol and I asked you the same question?”
3.. Jen - “Hindi ko sinasabing maganda ako. Ang sinasabi ko lang pangit ka.”
4.. Mr. Perk - Girl to guy she doesn’t like: “Email me nalang at getlost@donttalktome.com“
5.. Forg - While studying a difficult lesson in school, a classmate told his groupmate: “I’m as confused as your sexuality!”
6.. RC and Cess - Sister ordered burger with no lettuce. Burger arrived with lettuce. When she got mad manager apologized and offered free side order. Sister: “Ang gusto lang, tanggalin ang lettuce, hindi yung bigyan niyo ko ng kung anu-ano!”
7.. Hakunamatata - Girl1: “Bakit ang sama mo makatingin?” Girl2: “Eh ikaw, bakit ang sama mo tignan?”
8.. Arvie - “Pag nakikita kita, parang gusto ko mag-sorry sa mga mata ko.”
9.. Glenskie - “Diba pag pangit ka dapat nice ka?”
10.. Boknoi - Wife: “Bili mo kong bagong bra!” Husband: “Wag ka na mag-bra, maliit naman boobs mo eh.” Wife: “Eh bakit ikaw, nagbi-brief?”
11.. Xuxalera - After waiting in line so long at the toilet, when I was next in line, a girl approached me and said: “Miss, puwede sumingit? Naiihi na ko eh.” I told her: “Eh ano ba sa palagay mo ang rason kung bakit kami lahat nakapila dito?”
12.. Andee/Maymay - When someone told me: “Ang ganda mo!” I answered: “Sana ikaw din.”
13.. No name - Annoying classmate: “Guys, guys, saan kayo pupunta?” Kami: “Papalayo sa yo.”
14.. Foxmodem - I was an intern 3 years ago in a charity hospital about to circumcise a boy. The mom of the boy bought an ampule of local anesthesia but forgot to buy a syringe. The nurse told her: “Mommy, anong gagawin ko dito sa lidocaine, ibubudbod ko sa tit* ng anak mo?”
15.. No name - When we gave coins to a kid beggar, he said: “Hello, ni value meal di ako makabili nito!”
16.. Cootchiemhie - Boy: “Para akong lalagnatin.” Girl: “Eh di parang uminom ka ng gamot. Malay mo, parang gagaling ka.”
17.. C. Vanilla Ben - Boy: “Masarap?” Girl: “Bumili ka, para malaman mo.”
18.. No name - Girl sees a guy peeing against the wall: “Yuck, ang liit ng tit*, ang daming bulb*l!” Guy: “Ano gusto mo, maliit ang bulb*l at madaming tit*?”
19.. Grace - When the cashier at the grocery said: “Miss, puwedeng kendi nalang ang sukli ko sa yo?” I told her: “Bakit, tsokolate ba ang binayad ko?”
20.. Andee - At a swimming pool. Officemate1: “I’m sure lulutang ka.” Officemate2: “Bakit, dahil payat ako?” Officemate1: “Hindi, dahil plastic ka.”
21.. Arvie - Sa isang turo-turo. Customer: “Miss, may langaw sa arroz caldo ko!” Tindera: “Sa halagang limang piso, anong ine-expect mo, manok?”

Spaceship of the Future

I don’t feel like writing serious stuff but I would like to give you another update of what’s going on. I am really excited  on my new role 2 weeks from now. I found a new routes to explore around my own neighborhood. What I mean is….I will not be stepping out of the spaceship but I’ll be soon transferring to another part of the spaceship where I will be given a chance to do what I’d like to do and  I am sure I will enjoy doing to acquire new skills.

Many people have supported me about the new job and I’d like to thank them. I’ll be leaving my lovely colleagues in my department who have encouraged me, given me ideas and thought me lots of things and most of all, for their friendship. To the one who helped me the most with creating this blog and the idea, who have always been very helpful, generous, and very supportive in every situation that I had to deal with. I hope everything will be just fine for you as well with your challenging missions in the future! It has been awesome to work  with you guys. I’ll be missing you all.  The place where I will be transferring isn’t too far away and we are still at the same spaceship, so you can expect to still see me around. And I hope the short distance wont change anything.

For almost 3 years, I enjoyed the company of younger generations including their immaturities and aggressiveness, the irregularities of schedules…working when everybody is sleeping or having their vacations, the overcrowded MRT, walking through a rocky road parking lot where it is such as waste if you are wearing signature shoes, leaving my place at least 2 hours before my time in and the waiting of rides going back home…where stories were shared and secrets were revealed.

Thank you again to everyone who made my job for the last 3 years so enjoyable! And I hope I have so much to thank for the coming years and have the best of luck on my new working environment.

Accidental Bloopers! Ooppsss!!!

 I am an organized person. Every night, I prepare everything what I need for the following day.  When I have a trip, I started packing  5 days before the scheduled trip eventhough it will only lasts for 3 days, just to make sure nothing amiss.

But then, 2 weeks ago, it must be a bad day for me or I woke up at the wrong side of the bed or something weird. I had this bloopers while going to work. I woke up,  took a bath, did my rituals and put on my 2 piece uniform then left my place. I walked about 50 meters from my place to wait for a jeep going to MRT, rode the  MRT and alighted in Ortigas station. I was taking my time, it was just too early for my schedule…. when suddenly a middle aged woman behind me whispered and removed something that was clipped on the hem of my dress saying “Miss, may ipit ka sa damit”  then gave me the neon green dress clip. The woman was trying to supress her giggles. Ooppss!!! It was not visible since it was clipped at the back of my dress until it  has been pointed out to me.

As it turned out, my brother who left our place earlier than me removed the clip from his shirt then clipped it to my uniform.

Then the following day, I was at DFA to renew my passport. When the assisting personnel was checking my birth certificate, she asked me “alam mo ba na wala kang gender sa birth certificate mo?” What???? Oh crap! Fortunately, I had with me my old passport and I don’t have to provide an affidavit that I am a girl. I thought she was going to ask me what to put on my gender. The last time I checked, I was and I am still a 100% girl. Do I need to provide a certification? My parents must be overwhelmed when I was born, they did not bother to check if I was a boy or a girl. At least I know my name is a girl name. I happened to know someone named  “Baby Boy” on his birth certificate.

Let’s face it, most of us are human. We all make mistakes. This is just to add a little light hearted humor to our day. It was never happened to me before but from now on I will keep on checking my dress if there is something clipped on it before I leave our place. But I dont have to check everyday if I am a girl.  I had a few giggles and it gives me something to chuckle at.

Irresistible Encounter

  A day after I published my entry below, an old friend dropped by, who claimed she just visited another friend near my place.  She is one of my very few blog followers. She told me, she read my blog last night and and I asked her “So?” She said I might want to write her own untold story, here it goes:

Years ago, she met this guy. They used to live in the same apartment building. They got along well,  would always eat together,  watch movies, and sometimes go out of town. But she didn’t know she would end up falling in love with him at the very critical time.  Maybe it was during the 4th year of togetherness, she developed deep feelings for him. The guy was already engaged, the wedding details she happened to know through a common friend. Two days before his wedding, the guy called her up  apologizing for that “too close for comfort” thing between them. She thought, why the hell was he apologizing? Those were the happiest days of her life. The guy made her promised to attend his wedding which she did. It was like part of her died that day. It was not pain but she prayed hard to take away the sadness that settled deep in her heart and to give her even a little courage to cope up. He was taken away from her….someone she can rely and count on, someone she can always run to, who never left her high and dry, whom she can be herself without being judged. She was sure, he was also ready to stand up or her and take blows on her behalf. But then, it will never be the same again.

Sometimes, life never seems to be the way you want it to be. There are things we are longing in ourlives that cannot be ours, no matter what we do. Eventually, she moved on, everything…very slowly… went back to normal for her. They still talked, ocassionally saw each other and sometimes  bumped at each other around the area, trying to kept the treasured relationship.  All the times they have together are permanently etched in history.  Until now, the memory of sadness of those times always bring tears on her eyes.

She started dating again but as a firm believer in love. luck did not shine brightly on her. She have been through her share of hell. After a while she gave up even trying to date. I asked, “Is he on the way?” She thought for a while then replied “No, I dont think so, it is just that I  could never find someone I was attracted to whom I would be having…if not more than then even the same level of intensity of what I felt before”.

Years passed by until few years ago when she thought that she would never had a chance to feel the same way again. Its like feeling that “if it takes her heart and soul,  you know she’d pay the price… everything that she possess she’ll gladly sacrifice.”  She is considering opportunities that she may not have in the past. It may not lasts forever,  but she decided to generally try to make each day the happiest day of her life.

She stood up, drinking the juice I gave her, saying “It is definitely not the happily ever after but I felt resurrected, feels great to be human again”. Adding, “Be early on Monday, exercise your rights, vote with your heart”.

LIfe Goes On….and On

 One night coming from the spaceship, we had this somewhat no nonsense conversation about past life….who we were in our past lives?? Some of us believe  that we have lived past lives and that those past lives influence us today…or help us understand the mischievous nature that we are.

Based on my birthday, accordingly I was a female in my last earthly incarnation. I was born somewhere in the territory of modern West Africa around the year 1725.  My profession was that of a dancer, singer or actor. My brief psychological profile in my past life: Ruthless character, carefully weighing his decisions in critical  situations, with excellent self-control and strong will. Such people are generally liked, but not always loved. The lesson that my last past life brought to my present incarnation: My lesson is to combat violence and disharmony in our world, to understand its roots and origins.  All global problems have similar origins.

Contrary to that analysis, more than 7 years ago, I met someone who just asked my name, my age and held my hands, looked into my eyes and told me I was not an ordinary nun….but a monk in my past life, who occasionally finding myself contemplating the mysteries of life. The person that I was….often dress in severe, unattractive, dark clothing, a past life as a monk might be guiding such choices because of the safety and protection they once provided. I tend to do something out of devotion rather than obligation. My life offer me the opportunities to enter into other peoples’ lives on a very profound level. I was more concerned with the welfare of others than on my own, often sacrifice my own happiness for the happiness of others I love, prefer to suffer in silence and let my belief  frees me from negative feelings and allows me to transcend pain.

That time, I started to realized maybe I am one of those people who are designed to be alone…without a partner…which is easier for me to choose to be and not at all due to circumstances? Being alone does not mean being lonely. There are other ways to connect with other people. Accept the fact that I have loved and been loved and make do with what I have.

We are what we were in past lives, both good and bad.  And what we are in this life will be part of what we will be when we come back again. 

Taking a Break…

  Everyone is so busy these days and think that they can’t  really take a break. However, it is often our breaks that  help us keep perspective and to refocus on what we want.

I, on the other hand, had a tiring weekend for taking breaks. Whew!!!  The supposed to be Eat All You Can dinner with old friends last Friday was cancelled due to heavy rain though I was already at the meeting place, they could not get the ride going there. The Plan B with my cousin was also cancelled. We were supposed to attend the retirement party of one of my Aunt. At the end, we just had a homemade dinner at my cousin’s place.

I asked my cousin if she wants to join me and my sister when we have our shots for the cervical cancer and she refused saying “I don’t need it, I’ll be dying anyway. If ever, I dont want to prolong the agony”. I told her at least you will be doing something to prevent it. It let me pause and think…We should never allow  our fears or the expectations of others to set the frontiers of our destiny. Well, that’s her decision to make and she is already setting up her destiny. I told her my plan of applying to other non-voice department and she said good for me. She knows I am enjoying my time and friends but I could not definitely enjoy my work if my health is at risk. I had my tonsils removed few years back and it affected my voice. Sometimes, I would be running to her with my hoarse voice and bleeding throat. She told me, maybe sooner or later I would also be experiencing some hormonal manifestation brought about the age. Well, that’s why i am doing something now to have some prevention.

The following day was busy break also. I got to visit  Quiapo Church with a friend. It was the first time I had a good look inside the church without an overcrowded devotees. Too bad, I was wearing shorts that time, I was not allowed to take a look at the Nazarene. After lunch, I had to meet a friend with my niece in tow at the mall. We talked about politics and the coming election. That late afternoon, my niece and I had dinner with my cousins before finally going home.

 Today, I had to cook something, it was my turn. My cousins had lunch at my place. Fiesta in our barangay, several shows held even 2 weeks before the fiesta and there was an  overall ambiance of merriment. My cousin even performed that monthly coloring of  my hair. Unfortunately, later that day, I bumped with one of the friends of my  cousin, who passed away recently. That friend was trying to make a pass on me.  Fortunately though, I was with my other cousins who helped me out of this irritating situation. They told him I had a long time boyfriend and to stop pestering me as our cousin will not going to like it.  What the fuck is wrong with those people  who think you are open to anything once they know you are still single at not very early age? Well, I am glad that settled now. I can have my massage later and still have  one day rest before going to work again.

Take a break guys, we all need it!!!!

The Heat is On

The sizzling summer heat is on…it is unforgivenly hot outside and inside our home. The temperature readings soar up to their highest in the last decades. I heard the temperature reached as high as 42 degrees in Tuguegarao last week.  Whew….that’s super hot.  It is reportedly a kind of heat that could melt an unlit candle.

Some may thought lucky enough to have a night work…enjoying the airconditioned office at night but will  not be considered lucky during the day as they cannot enjoy the comfort of their bed to have a proper rest due to hot temperature. But then, there are good things that can be done to advantage in this very hot summer.  We can spare a few hours of extra curricular activities after shift where we can sweat the stress out of our body. Like going to a gym…we will have an excuse to expose more skin and be in our most comfortable suit and at a more comfortable environment. We can move naturally and sometimes we have movements that we never know we can do. The more we move the more we release the tension from our body. We can shout…we can be loud and actually watch ourselves in action. There are no rules, no room for words.

After sweating it out, rubdown will always be a bonus. It can actually give more than a momentary tingle or a second of solace. We would notice that when skin touches skin, it feels like fire. Then, we can enjoy the luxury of warm shower to freshen us up. And there is no reason to have our good sleep afterwards though the heat of summer is still boiling.

Sweet and Painful

This entry is for my friend, whom I will be lending the book I am presently reading. My friend, I am not yet through with the story, but just to give you a hint which part I am now,  read this…..

“They are now in the center of a empty darkened solarium. His hands touching her hips and stomach stilled. He said “I’ll make it good for you”. His hands slipped up the slopes of her breasts and he cupped her through the white lace balconnet bra. He fed her hot kisses and she raised one hand behind his head and held his mouth to hers and the heat of their kisses spread across their bodies.  There was no mistaking the desire burning in their eyes. His fingers brushed across her stomach and slipped beneath the white underwear. She felt hot and itching. His  fingers trailed across his pelvis  to her behind. She kissed him like he was her last meal and her skin felt hot and tight. She pressed her palm to his erection and felt the heat of him then squeezed. Lust, hot and liquid, rushed through her veins,  burning away everything but the need for him. He pushed the thong down her legs then he reached for her and ran his hands down her bottom  to the backs of her thighs. He lifted her legs and ran her tongue at the inside of her thighs. She almost scream as the liquid fire poured through her body and burned her up from the inside out. He kissed her again and remove her bra and sucked alternately the two peaks. He then lowered himself to her, she automatically wrapped her legs around him.  She sucked in her breath and held it, when she felt the stretching of her tight flesh. She felt pain and its not yet over….but don’t have any  idea ever being this good. Beautiful and intense and painfully sweet….”

Dude, I still have 6 chapters left and I hope to finish it before weekend….

Commemorating & Celebrating

 This week is rather odd for my family.  My first cousin who has been sick for less than a year passed away after we celebrated the Easter Sunday last week, the same day that my family was commemorating the 40 days of my Uncle’s death. My cousin was a man of few words and have a very small family….leaving a wife,  a very young daughter and 2 single siblings. Tomorrow, we will be saying a final goodbye to him.

Losing a family is inevitable for most of us, as that is the way that the system was designed.  However, we never like to give up those we love, especially if it is earlier in life. It gets easier, but it never goes away. they will always be there in thought and deed for us.

Today April 9 we also commemorating the death anniversary of my grandmother on my father side at the same time celebrating the birthday of my sister with the same name as my grandmother. Ironic, isn’t it? She died on the date of my sister’s birthday.

Sometimes, when faced with life’s choices, we can’t stick to our guns eventhough nobody tells us what we can’t do or have. BUt sometimes when we are in the driver’s seat, we are not going to apologize for our choices.

To my cousin, uncle and my grandmother, may your souls be in heaven and in the arms  of the Lord.

  And to my Sis, Happy Happy Birthday, may you be blessed with healthier, longer and interesting life.  We are sisters by chance, friends by choice.

Still on Vacation Mode

The Holy Week vacation is almost over, I had a a great time with my siblings, had a blast of  road trip and pampering myself. I had a lot of fun  and I am sure I’ve gained pounds. Thought it was just fun, fun, fun… but this morning we were informed that my cousin was rushed back to hospital and we just visited him this afternoon, hope he gets better soon.

I will be back to the grind tomorrow. And I’m not ready for it!  Anyways, there’s nothing I can do about it except to plan and look forward for my next vacation. I’ll miss the restful days, doing and worrying about nothing but looking on the brighter side, I will meet my friends and I’ll be able to meet new challenges again once I get back to work…wonderful!!!