See-through

 I’m learning new things about the people around me and while I am at it, I am participating, but I am also observing. I get to enjoy both layers. Some things are a little harder to take and some would really hit a nerve for some reason. Well, it would be a spice of life. Sometimes, our life appears to have come in smooth waters but still water runs deep. We learn whatever we may need to know. If we look inside our mind, there’s no limit to the wonders what we can find.

The Dinner

Damn! its 5:00am, I have to open my eyes and drag myself to shower. I feel like I need 8 hours more sleep. It would be my first time to wake up again this early after more than a month of waking up a little after 6:00am. But I have to…I have an early dinner today with a close friend, that’s why I chose an early shift. After almost a month of planning for dinner, finally, today would be the day. She arranged it, she picked up the place (and she promised to pick up the tab also…..).

Anyways, 4:00pm, I have to log out. Luckily, I’m still on my enjoyable task so I don’t have any problem if I have to be out at exactly 4pm. Meeting place: Greenbelt 5. Of all the places to meet, my friend don’t know its convenience for me. As usual, she was late for an hour. I’m used to it, she will be coming from far North. While waiting, I attended first the mass at Greenbelt Church.  I remember more than a week ago, after Sunday mass with my cousin, we were also at the same place and just browsing around when we heard a commotion then gunshots and found ourselves running with the others outside of the building. It was a robbery in broad daylight at Rolex store inside the mall.

Here comes my friend and she looks happy. We ate at the 2^nd level of Greenbelt and ordered. I let her order, she has a very good appetite for her weight. We talked life in general, as if we were in a talk show. We must know each other very well so the conversation was just light and even laugh with our views and opinions. And debate some of the gossips that we shared.

After dinner, we strolled around the park. She always bring her camera so we had some picture taking (I wish I was not in my office uniform….wala lang, para lang kaming turista… but most of the time I was taking her pix).

We parted ways around 9pm with the promise that we will be having dinner again. She is adventurous when it comes to foods and wants to try every singe resto at Greenbelt.  Wow! I can tell that she really had a great time but I still sense she wants to return back to that place for something. But, that remains to be seen and for me to find…I will wait for our next dinner. Maybe, she would spill it out.  

The Power

There are things that are better to be left unsaid. Less talk less trouble. Some of us have the power to see the real “you”. If they haven’t sniffed the darkest corners of your psyche, they haven’t got all the facts to make an informed judgment. But then, there are some things that we need not to know. We cannot escape from it, the details might not be present but the clearer pictures are there.…it comes naturally.

This becomes so much more of an issue as we get older - more history - less of it shared with the new person. A human being always has a tendency to unfold mysteries of life…likes to reveal everything that is concealed

Personal Task Management

It lasted four straight weeks, all I have to do is check the incoming mails and then forward to the concerned units. I’m not sure how I managed it…how I managed to let every single day passed doing just that. The fact is, I simply have more to accomplish than can reasonably be done in the responsibilities assigned to me. But what the heck!!! I enjoyed it like everybody else assigned to this task. After every end of the day, I realized that I’ve been very busy, and that little part of my personality felt a sense of completion. Even if it’s a little task, I know I helped a lot. It truly commit to brief bursts of relaxation and leisure time and gave me a more productive and enjoyable mindset.

Do I have OCD?

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder?  Maybe I have! Yes, I have…a little perhaps. And I do my compulsions over and over again in rituals (that’s a secret). But I’ll let you in with my little secret. When I am having an OCD (well…I don’t call it suffering), I usually cook all…and I mean all…..inside our refrigerator. After cooking, I am naturally exhausted, then I will sit in front of my pc and will try to write anything…everything under the sun. I used to keep a live journal online but unfortunately I forgot my password. I also used to draw. Initially, I tried to draw landscape then I tried humans, animals and other living things but eventually I stopped….I realized it was just a waste of paper and I had a problem with my wrist. They say that certain things may be avoided such as touching others or being touched when you are having an OCD. Well, I never gave some thought about it. It is just part of my normal personality

Anyway, it is just hitting me when I have a headache like today.  I know its coming when a few days ago, tears came pouring from my eyes without me crying. My eyes are very sensitive to the light especially in the morning on my way to work.  Sometimes, it makes me want to throw up. Maybe, it developed into migraine. Oh Damn!….I had too much chocolates again.

Boundless

 I just got back from the 7^th birthday party of one of my “inaanak”, the son of one of my closest friend. Come to think of it, how time flies, if I got married the same time as she, probably I also have one or two kids by now. But.. the big butt? is…. if that would be one of my plan that time. And the answer is Big NO…not that time, not the time after that and definitely not now or the future. I don’t know, but it never crossed my mind. I never panicked when I know my biological clock already ticking. Maybe, I am not a wife or mother material??.. Yes, maybe.  The only thing I know is I enjoy my current status.

In parties like this, I expected to get hit with the question “Not married yet?”  And I usually just say “no one special” or “no ring yet!” so I don’t have to go in to details about whoever I am spending time with. It always feels like you are the only single person, but I’d guess there will be a handful of other single people — and even a few who wish they were.  Try to remember that the only reason anyone would ask you about your relationship status is because they don’t have anything interesting to talk about!  

I saw the sister of my friend in that party, the same age as mine and also still single and she asked me “Why I am still single?”. I said “I could ask you the same question?”. She replied,  “I love being single because I’m very independent and I like to do what I want, when I want it”. And I said “We have the same answer”.

What have I got to complain about anyway? I cannot possibly say something like “I think its time for a new start or time for a new beggining or I better think about it now” it sounds so bitter, as if I am regretting what I have been though or being single…. and I am not.

Pick up lines

      This is a collection of pick up lines that I gathered -  READER DISCRETION IS ADVISED.  

·  Uy sabi ng doctor malala na daw ang sakit ko sa puso. Dalawa na lang daw ang option: either ICU or you see me.

·  Do you have a Bandaid? Coz I just scraped my knee falling for you.

·  Do you have a map? Coz, I just keep gettin lost in your eyes.

·  Hey, nice dress! Can I talk you out of it?

·  Girl, you gotta be tired coz you been running through my mind all day.

·  Got two nipples for a dime?

·  Hey baby, you must be a light switch, coz every time I see you, you turn me on!

·  Hi, I’m the new Milkman. Do you want it in the front or the back?

·  Was your Father an Alien? Coz on planet earth there’s nothing else like you!

·  You’re so hot you melt the plastic in my underwear.

·  I must be lost. I thought Paradise was east of here.

·  Do you like to bake? (Yes.) I’d love to feel your hot-cross buns.

·  Your name must be Lucky Charms because you’re magically delicious!

·  I sure like the cover of your book, can I check out the pages in between.

·  I’ve been wondering, do your lips taste as good as they look?

·  If you were a new sandwich at Mcdonalds, you’de be called the McGorgeous.

·  If I flip a coin, what do you reckon my chances are of getting head?

·  If we were both squirrels, would you let me bust a nut in your hole

·  The word of the day is “legs.” Let’s say we head back to your place and spread the word.

·  If I could rearrange the alphabet, I’d put you between F and CK…

·  Hey I’m looking for a treasure, Can I look around your chest?

·  Do you want to see something swell?

·  Hey! Wanna play war? I’ll lay on the ground and you blow the fuck outta me!

·  Do you mind if I ask you a personal question? Have you ever had your belly-button licked?..(Yes).From the inside?

·  Would you like gin and platonic or do you prefer scotch and sofa?

·  Forget that! Playing doctor is for kids! Let’s play gynaecologist.

·  Wanna play carnival? You sit on my face and I guess how much you weigh.

·  COPS!! Spread em’

·  NOW, BITCH!

     This enty is dedicated to one particular alien who I hope would enjoy reading it (….you know who you are!) It would probably help in your fantasy (kidding…). Thank You for reading and Thank You for laughing.

Looking ahead

Today, our spaceship master requested us to write an essay  on  ”how do I see myself 5 years from now and what are my goals to achieve it” composed of minimum of 100 and maximum of 200 words. We did not know the reason why we were asked to write an essay. Let me share what I wrote, here it goes….

Five years from now, I can see myself  looking back but continue to move forward. Definitely, I am sure I will be growing as a person who learned a lot from the past and will be applying it for a better future.  Professionally, I would be in better position in reaching my dreams. I will be working harder and have more passion with what I am doing.  Spiritually, I would be closer to God. I will be more sensitive to the needs of others and will put God first in eveything I do. Physically, I would be in the best of health. I will be exercising regularly and closely watching my diet. Socially, I would be visiting more places enjoying the fruit of my labor. Personally, I would be in a more stable stage in life  where I would be working  to live and not vice versa. I will be studying also the possibility of expanding my resources. 

My determination and inspirations will help me in achieving my goals. It might not be a very extavagant dream but enough for me to enjoy life and have fun. To live a life full of promise of a better future.

I know it was not idealistic, what do you expect? Idealism is for newly grad, duh!!! Actually, I almost add “World Peace” hahaha…that’s more like it.

LIfe of the Party

I attended my little boss’ birthday bash the other night and I think 80% of our group’s population were present. It was a kind of party where people just go to mingle and talk about anything and everything just for fun. Some were interesting some were not.

In our workplace, we seldom have a chance to really talk and have fun. Last night was one of the few times that we were together doing nothing except eat, talk, laugh and enjoy our time. Maybe my natural warmth put them at ease to open up and share what they think or their unforgettable experiences,

In between meals, I found myself having a nonsense conversion with this colleague who is 12 years my senior, 3x whiter and 2x lighter than me (ouch!!). Anyways, she shared this unforgettable experience some years back when she was still struggling to find a job. It was 1:30pm, she was in Magallanes Makati that time, just finished an interview with one of the company along the CBD. She was about to ride a bus going to Fairview, she is residing in Fairview, when she realized that her money was not enough for the fare even an ordinary bus. She decided to walk her way from Magallanes up to Kamuning using the side streets. I asked her why did she call anybody she knows near the area to help her or text anybody (unfortunately, mobile is out of the question that time). She claimed she never thought about it anymore. After 1 and half hour, she was in Fairview and luckily the money left in her possession was enough for the ride in the jeep to her place. She told me that after arriving in Kamuning, she felt like fainting. After she told me her experience, we just laugh it off.

After eating, somebody gave me a drink. Maybe that person already had a drink, that was why it was easy for him to talk about himself. He told me a story of himself, just one breadwinner scattered around the planet, trying to earn a living for the people they love, and provide a better future for their family. A 27 year old guy trying to earn a living for his 9 siblings, him being the eldest and the youngest is just 11 years old. His father passed away when he was in his teens. His mother found another man and left them so he is taking care of all his 8 siblings, 1 already married, 2 other siblings also working and it left them 6 siblings to support but  he said they can only support the study of 3 siblings. The remaining 3 are just taking care of the house. He was employed by our company 2 months ahead of me. He said he was thankful, I asked him why, because he was previously employed in styro packaging company which exploded a few months after he left. He is now happy with his present job. He claimed there is an added bonus with his job, he is being a silent witness for anything interesting, top secret and fishy that is happening in the workplace.  Hhmmmnnn, maybe I will find another time to sit and talk again to that guy so that I will have something to put in my blog.

As the proverb says “pleasure shared is a pleasure multiplied”.  People are not inclined to talk about the miseries of life when seated at the table full of happy table companions. Only the humurous subjects and funny anecdotes will be reviewed during such gatherings.

Too bad, I was among those who left early, I did not had a chance to mingle with other guests with interesting life stories to share. Parties like these are always memorable but make sure you don’t do anything you don’t want to hear the morning after.

Thoughts worth thinking

 I share my thoughts on a variety of topics with most people, like I am doing right now through the Internet. I do that at work, at meetings, at social functions and in other group activities. It does not have to be superficial - it can be an intellectual sharing, it can be social fun sharing etc.

But my innermost thoughts or soul (that is, my dreams, aspirations, goals, disillusionments, or any other private thoughts that I would trust with another human) I choose to share with only a selected few. And even within this selected few, I choose as to what sort of innermost thoughts I share. Some tends to get the full version because of the nature of our relationship. My parents or siblings may not want to hear the full details (may be too troubling for them), so I share only what is needed. And so too with my other close friends.

Other readers of this blog may know me in real life and yes, I’m that crazy! Hahaha! But I hope I’m giving you fun when you read and my observations are interesting enough for you, wacky and downright hilarious. If you can take my VERY candid honesty or if you can just read between the lines, you are sure to see why I’m  amazing, why you should read my blog.

Nature’s Lover

    We cannot always predict the moods of nature, and it is wise to be well prepared for any calamity when natural disaster strikes. These past week has been a nightmare for most of us, even though we were lucky enough not to be affected by the calamity, some way or another we know somebody who were affected.  Its better to always be ready for anything.

I once experienced the same calamity in our province when I was a little kid. Our dike was forcefully opened due to days of heavy rains and the flood was 6 feet high not just for a day but for 3 days. It was not a sea water but chocolate colored water from the dike.  We just stayed at the 2^nd floor of our house together with our other relatives. 4 families included we were about 20 persons. Our island almost erased from the map due to that flash flood. There were no help that time, the whole town were affected. Lucky enough we had enough supplies of basic needs that could last several days. My grandmother has a sari sari store that time. We could see from our windows several things floating. I would hear my father and uncles giving instructions to my mother and aunties that worst comes to worst hold on to ANYTHING that would let them survived. We just prayed together. It was scary but we did not leave our place. The flash flood subsided after 3 days leaving our town 99% damaged with devastating effect.

Let this calamities be an eye opener to those who are abusing the nature and let’s discipline ourselves. Let’s preserve our nature because it remains to be our number one hope in breathing and living on this planet. And most of all, don’t forget the power of prayer.

So near yet so far away

Its like watching the stars in the sky though a telescope. Its million miles away from us but we can always imagine that we can almost touch it.

We are creating series of situations to defy the distance when we yearn to watch it so that we feel that it is a mere heartbeat away from us. We are creating our own world in which we can be together. When we watch we can almost feel the heat against our body.  We take pictures and we can even flirt with the stars and always wonders if that could be the closest that we can get.

   We do not see its light as a bad thing, but rather as a great one. We learn from it and we are using it as a positive aspect of our learning. It is somewhere that we are NOT.  We cant pull those tricks on it  and its like we almost forget how. its like it have us under its spell or something we don’t know.

Every time we interact with it further confirms our fascination.  We just hope in our heart that its light will never fade.