Holiday Pondering

   As we had breakfast this morning (that was one of the precious moments I had this month), I was thinking ahead of the upcoming Christmas season.  It makes me feel just a little bit crazy and I am suddenly filled with a feeling of joy.

I love giving gifts, but hate feeling like I didn’t spend quite enough on people, and maybe they didn’t like what I got them.  This afternoon, I had fun with one of my gift recipient, I treated her for a free hair style and I had mine too. We were both glad with the results.

I’m also looking forward for the homecoming of a cousin this Dec 28 from Australia and another one from US will be arriving this January 12. I do have a feeling we would be having so much fun ahead. They even asked for my wish list (and I couldn’t provide them even one single wish, oh crap! Blame it on my overwhelming feeling). Though, my bestfriend’s planned vacation did not pushed through, they went to Europe instead, its fine with me, I know they enjoyed their vacation.

This season is going well. Finished sending cards to a few close friends and relatives abroad, gave the gifts “to”, followed immediately by special moments with those persons in my life that need extra reminders that someone loves them & believes in them.

Tomorrow, I’ll be having quality bonding time with my folks and siblings until Christmas time and then will be leaving to my hometown with my folks on Dec 26.

I’ll be whispering Santa my wish later. Have a Merry Christmas eveyone.

New Bestfriend

  Meet my new bestfriend these days, my bed. Yes, that’s right….my bed. Since I’ve been sick, whenever I got home, I have spent most of my time in bed. I even wanted to carry it everytime I’m going out.

 …And this is the new bestfriend of my bestfriend….quilts.

Awareness

 I’ve known her for more than 2 years, a very strong person when it comes on handling things. Always has something to reply on comments, long black hair that she always manage to take care and regularly visits the beauty parlor, meticulous on the fit of her dress and she can actually sew, a girly girly and a very feminine. Admitted she never had a boyfriend, no boyfriend since birth. My guy friend even set her up with his buddy but she strongly refused saying she doesn’t do that kind of stuff. And we always wonder why?

Just recently, the group accidentally found out or rather she admitted she is a lesbian. And she herself just realized it too. She is not someone who “always knew”, but someone who definitely looks back and says “oh that’s why I acted like that”. She was in a constant state of awe at her total lack of self-awareness as far as figuring out what she is.  

She has a current partner with the same sex and claimed she wish to get out of the relationship. The group still think she is just confused and not yet confirmed. They understand her predicament and supporting whatever realization she wants. Now, I don’t know if I will still include her in my loop of girl friends whenever I greet them with a kiss….(kidding!!). Dont get me wrong, I dont have anything againts lesbians or gays. In fact, gays are genetics on my mothers’ side and I love them.

Too wrapped up!

  Few days before Christmas and I lack the energy of wandering from one shopping centre to the next, to try to find the perfect present for everyone on my list. But I have to…this afternoon, I spent 3 hours on the mall. My brother accompanied me to carry anything I would be buying.  My bro really hates the crowd of shoppers!! But there is a catch on accompanying me, he gets to choose the gift he wants for his birthday this coming Dec 17 and guess what???…he asked for a rubber shoes. Anyway, advance Happy Birthday Buddy! For me, I ended up buying few toys for my pamangkins and gifts for my inaanaks. I even asked for the wishlist of others to save me the time and requested a friend to make me some personalized gifts. Everytime I go shopping, I would be disappointed if I go home without buying something for myself even just a pair of undies. I hope I would manage to keep everyone happy.   

   I might give an impression of a very energetic person sometimes, but in reality, I struggle with this stuff a lot.  Maybe not as much as I used to, or not in the same way, but I do. I get sick too. Never been get sick for quite somethime. Just last week I got sick and not yet fully recovered, I still feel crappy, could not eat and sleep well yet. Sudden movement makes my head ache. I am still “low bat”. I even declined the invitations for group xmas party last night and another one tonight. I heard that bosses were asking why I was not there last night. Apparently, I was the only one not present on the group of awardees in the office. I saw their pix at FB and they really enjoyed the party, hopping from one bar to another and eventually spent the remaining of the night at the office. My folks will be coming soon and I don’t want this sickness still lingering on me when they arrived.

  At least, eventhough my body temperature was 39 degrees I still manage to accomplished part of my shopping list.  I can still do many things but then I just dont want to abused the strength that I still have. Phew, I hope Santa is for real.

Flying low!

Waaahh!!! I just came from a party, sort of get together also with old friends. Just happen that it was the 1^st birthday of our friend’s son.  I remember more than 2 years ago, we attended the wedding of our friend in Bacolod and we had a little adventure of side tripping first to Boracay. It was fun though and unforgettable.

It was a great party, catching up with friends but the problem …I was not feeling well. Food seems to be good but tasted like cardboard on my tongue. The lechon was shipped directly that day from Cebu. It needs to be chopped before it was shipped as it would require permit from Bureau of Animals. They stayed late to have a couple of drinks but I had to go early, I felt my head throbbing, my back aching and my throat sore. My body temperature wasn’t warm, but still I was feeling like crap. I felt feverish and just want to sleep. Luck of all lucks, I just had my period and I was a little edgy. So to avoid being a KJ, I left them promising to meet them up again sometime.

It sucks to feel sick when you have many things lined up. It really sucks.  I hope the body massage tomorrow would help me feel better.

December Blues

  Start of December, everybody seems to be changing moods, looking forward for holiday. Excited for the friends and relatives who would be having their vacation to be with us. Enjoy the planning of events and get together. Though, budget these days would be short, we still find ways to have something to give. 

But some would feel their energy level or self esteem become sort of low at some point due to many reasons …..like work, lack of sleep, events, etc….and would also feel useless. Sometimes, we can not always change every emotion and disappointing event, yet we can choose what we think and be open minded. We can stop thinking “Damn, I wish I could do that stuff!!” Yeah, we know this is particularly weird and annoying in many ways. Well, that goes for me too.